Hey guys. So I just wanted to post this because of you guys, because I’ve come to love you all. I’m leaving this rp. I’m sorry that I am, because I will really miss you guys, but I can’t be here anymore. I can’t be somewhere with certain people in the rp. I know this ooc drama and it goes against my own rules but I think you all deserve to know the truth on why exactly I’m leaving. I think you all deserve that much.
I’m leaving because I’m not having fun here anymore. I love you guys and you do entertain me, but the immature drama that I’ve been pulled into has turned this into hell. I didn’t make this rp to be in this stuff, and I refuse to stay in it. I won’t rp with someone who blames their problems on me or accuses me of thinking I’m innocent in something when I did absolutely nothing but found out the truth of what they think about me. I’m sorry I made the friends I did here. I thought that was the point of this rp, to act out our favorite characters and make new friends on tumblr. I’m sorry that wasn’t to the satisfaction of some people.
I realize now my mistake was believing people grow mature when they get older. I’m sorry I thought someone older than I am wouldn’t turn a simple question into high school. I wasn’t aware that I was doing anything wrong when I confronted said person for accusing me of stealing her friends. However, if I was wrong in that, I apologize before I leave. Still, I can’t be in an rp with someone who honestly thinks I act all innocent when in reality they can’t even own up to what they did. I’m sorry I didn’t think a ploy for attention wasn’t a joke. I’m sorry I don’t think leaving and deleting is a joke. I’m sorry that’s not my sense of humor. See when I think of a joke, I think of something that makes people laugh, not something that just draws attention to someone.
I’m also sorry for actually thinking some people wouldn’t take sides. I’m sorry for believing that my friends were my friends. And I’m sorry my words and intentions got twisted. Never once did I try to turn anyone against anyone. Never once did I draw any lines or make any sides in any of this. But somehow I was accused of that too. I was accused of tricking people and leeching on you guys. I’m sorry I don’t know what I leeched from you. But if I could, I’d give whatever I leeched back to you, I swear. I’m sorry if people think I bring out the worst in them. Seeing as I don’t come on as often as some of you, I’m not sure how I do that, but I’m sorry nonetheless. I’m sorry that I’m friends with the same people in this rp and that I do hear the gossip of what is said about me. I’m sorry people actually think they can control other people. I’m sorry they think that everyone in this RP is their puppet. I’m sorry they don’t have the choice to be friends with me without it becoming a problem.
I’m also sorry people think I’m all about me when I’ve been living in this person’s personal rp for the last two rp’s I was in. I’m sorry everyone left because they were tired of a one person central rp back then, and I’m sorry it’s driving me out now. But this is not me admitting defeat. This is not me saying I admit I’m exactly how I’ve been described as. This is me saying this is an online community and if this is going to be immature high school all over again, I’m not dealing with it. This rp was made to be fun, and excuse me for thinking High School was not and now is not fun. This is me saying sorry to the rest of you that have been caught in the crossfire of a war that’s honestly the stupidest thing I’ve ever seen. This is me saying I’m sorry that nobody even realizes what manipulation is. This is me saying that I’m sick of being painted as a bad guy to even my closest friends here.
The only reason I’m posting this now is because you need to finally know how messed up you’ve been and how it is not okay to act as you have or treat these people as you have been. Try to remember they’re human beings and not your personal puppets. You’ll probably not change because of a few words but I hope you finally get the point that this is not okay. That you’re not okay. And that you can’t keep blaming the problems that arise so conveniently when you need to look like the victim. But you can play the victim all you want, I’m not buying it. I figured you out a long time ago, and it’s only a matter of time before everyone figures it out for themselves. But you’re old enough to stop it. It stops being cute when you turn 10. After that, it’s just ridiculous. You’re not a victim. Stop acting like it. No one is buying it anymore. That’s the thing about attention seeking jokes you see. It’s like crying wolf. After the first few times, people stop buying it. But good luck with trying to manipulate them when they finally see through you. Go ahead, tell me I’m being a silly little girl and you don’t have time for me. But you made this happen. You did this. I was perfectly fine letting it go. I kept my mouth shut. But now I’m done.
I’m sorry you honestly think talking shit about me to people who are mad at me isn’t talking shit about me. I’m sorry that when you try to turn people against me, even if it’s in the past, you think t isn’t my business. I’m sorry you think people are as conniving as you are. I’m sorry you honestly think you can control people. But you cannot control me. And maybe that’s the biggest problem between us. That I, someone who you couldn’t control, was becoming friends with people you thought you could. Because I can see through all your bullshit, because I’ve known way too many people like you, because you do look for attention even if you try to pretend you don’t, because you’re not fooling me, because you turn everything into about you. I’m sorry I’m not okay with you central for this rp or any other rp. I’m sorry I don’t like everything being about you. I believe in something called equality, but apparently you don’t. And that’s fine. But you should know, that that person I accused you of being is 10 years younger than you but she’s matured so much more than you, because you never will. Because you turned this into high school. Because you took it to a point where I can’t even stand being in this rp with you. You can have this rp, because I don’t need this rp to be friends with people. I don’t need this rp to be friends with THESE people. I can be friends with them even without it. And I will. I’m sure you’ll try to stop me, and tell them all this shit about me. I’m sure you’ll once again try to turn me into the big bad bitch, but I don’t care. I honestly don’t give a shit what you think because at the end of the day, you’re not worth my time. You’re not worth my time at all so much that I’m leaving. You may think you’ve won because I’m leaving but at the end of the day, you’re losing, because I’m going to grow up, while you’re going to be just as immature and just as pathetic for who knows how long. Have fun making it all about you, and manipulating everyone. But you should know that they all will realize it one day. They’ll see you as I’ve seen you all along, as someone who tries too hard for attention, but when she doesn’t get what she wants, she’ll use words to make herself excusable for her actions. I can see that you’ve missed a few lessons on etiquette, but blaming your personality on problems that arise only when you need to get out of taking responsibility of your actions may help you out on the internet, but they won’t always work in real life. And I’m sure one day you’ll be hit with that lesson hard, and it will suck, and I’m sorry about that, but honestly? At this point, you did it to yourself. Your ‘problems’ didn’t turn you into who you are, that’s just who you are. You’re a manipulating lying two-faced bitch. And I’m done with you.
As for the rest of you, I’m sorry if this makes you hate me, I really am. I hope you guys understand that this has gotten to a point where I can’t keep quiet anymore. I was always taught to face my problems head on, not whisper them to everyone in a positive light for myself. I’m not a person who gets mad. I rarely get mad in real life. And honestly, I’ve never had any respect for people who do this shit online. But this has gotten to a point where there is nothing else for me to do but say what I have to say and leave. I’m sorry if I offend anyone this doesn’t apply to. And I hope you all keep in contact. In fact, I’m starting a new rp with Shalla that’s Post Hogwarts and I hope you guys join! Obviously you wouldn’t need to apply since I’ve seen your rp-ing. But if you do want to join, and despite this post, I really hope you do, the url is http://posthogwartsrp.tumblr.com . I honestly love the rest of you, I really do. And I hope this doesn’t change your opinion of me too much. Anyways, even if you don’t join, feel free to hit me up anytime on my personal: http://thenoblehouseofblack.tumblr.com . Again, love you all, and I’m sorry.
-Devi
